Pretension? not at all.

I just couldn't believe I just did that. What the hell was I thinking?! Now with that I can be excommunicated in no time, I can't imagine I myself had submitted to this. urgh! Now what? I asked myself, what more can I say? Babawiin ko kaya i thought for a while.

jica: hay naku!
jica: magalit bah

hearing that or in this case reading what she just replied was a relief in my part atleast she still talk to me and now i'm left with the decision, whether to hold on to what I've said or not. I was silent the whole time thinking what to say next. Hala! nag sign out xa, that then left me a question in mind, galit ba xa? or did she just thought and believe that I was damn serious with what I said. Hmmm... I kept my silence for 3 days... I left my ym opened while I watch television, when I went back infront of my pc...

jica: uy!! galit ka pa?

naku! now i got an answer to the question i had these past few days... and i guess di xa galit. So "before this gets worst, i should be saying something" i thought to myself, but "it should be something that doesn't imply that everything was fine and that I was blurting words and didn't really mean anything" Coz' I really mean everything.

me: have you told your mom?
me: have you told your dad?
me: ?

no response from her but her status is still online. It was confusing to my part, I just don't have any idea does she feel with the arguement. The same question was raised again in mind. I she mad at me or something? hahayz a week or so passed by...

jica: buzz!
me: hi
jica: pssst

oops! did I say hi! nyahahaha I did not keep my word, I mean not for long...

jica: hi yur
jica: yehey
jica: kinakausap mo na ko
jica: ehehehe
jica: *wink and big grin emoticon*
jica: *hug emoticon*
me: ?
jica: *hug emoticon*
jica: *hug emoticon*
me: ikaw lang naman cguro yung person na kayang di makipag usap
jica: kawawa ko naman
jica: huhuhuhu
me: bitaw .... di ba totoo?
jica: di noh
jica: depende sa tao yun... pero sa'yo nagtry naman ako nagtalk ah
jica: nag buzz kaya ako
jica: hmph
jica: special ka kaya
jica: ehehehehehe
me: nyahahahahaha

"nambola pa toh" i was saying at the back of my mind... but it felt good hearing it from her though.

me: *sticked-out-tongue emoticon*
jica: *hug emoticon*
me: pinipili mo lang pala yung kinakausap mo?
me: hehe
jica: uhuh
jica: ehehe
me: ngek
me: di mo nga ako pinansin dun sa _____ (basta kainan xa)
jica: i smiled oi
jica: ang bad mo naman
jica: hmph
jica: di mo ko na notice
me: hala! di kaya
jica: huhuhuhuhuhu
me: tumingin namn ako sa'yo eh
me: pero nagtalk kayo
me: baka mapahiya lang ako

yes i did look at her pero parang wala lang sa kanya that I was standing infront of their table kc I got water from the fountain, kaya tumalikod nlang ako then went back to our table. Takot ako baka mapahiya lang ako, as i've said kaya nya di kausapin ang isang tao kahit for a lifetime pa. Hmmm...

jica: oi i smiled
jica: hahayz
me: *sticked_out-tongue emoticon*
me: wala
jica: i smiled oi
jica: di mo cguro nakita
jica: baka di ka sa akin nakatingin
jica: ehehe
jica: joke
jica: *sticked-out tongue emoticon*
me: nyahahahahha
jica: hahahaha
jica: bitaw

and then I change the topic and everything went okey nah... I did just hoped na sana I didn't hear anything from her nalang it just made me hope she meant everything she just said.