past comes back

It was around 6 something when I arrived at the venue where the so called "skul party" is to be held... whoah! a lot of people was there... laughs and buzzes is all you can hear and they are in groups... i am easily intimidated by crowds and at that moment darn! i was -- not to mention that i was alone, my friends were already inside the hall and i was left outside because i was late.

I was looking at people's outfit while waiting for my friend whom i texted. Well that's all i can do, with me alone and intimidated what better way to keep cool -- than critique. In the invite as i can recall... semi-formal was the attire for the day but when i came to see the crowd it was seemingly not the suggested outfit... that includes me... hahahaha and i know i was in casual....

- brown track jacket
- white polo
- shirt from artwork
- jeans
- black leather shoes

Anyway, my friend approached me after a few minutes of waiting and lead me to the entrance... i was finally there, settled. Days ago i anticipated that I'll be seeing someone whom for the longest time I've never seen. Well seen her at school once but it was just last week and she never saw me though i texted her that i saw her.

It was around 7pm when me and my friends decided to get our food at the counter. It was totally a wreck, poor venue it was all messed up... the floor was wet all over (where the food was distributed) and not to mention those who were incharge were not so accomodating i supposed. There was a problem to add with the food tickets given to us... I was pissed off a bit with that and it tooked us 10 minutes ++ to get our food when infact we opted to get our food late so not to be caught up with the crowd.

While waiting and pissed... right next to me -- that is inches away from me, was the guy i saw from the friendster account of the girl which shall i call "Kym"... Holy Crap i thought, realizing that Kym might be some meters away from me but when i looked around saw no signs of her. Hmmmmm I now then assume that her alleged boyfriend is gentleman enough to get the food for her...

Well Kym was a girl i met years ago, 2 yrs ago i think... She was cute... tsinita... not tall... and simple. I Have to admit I fell for her. I was not so torpe then i guess... she knows I fell for her... told her back then but she wasn't ready to enter a relationship and she clarified to me it wasn't busted. Last seen her December 24, 2004 since then never so her but communicated still. It was around March 2005 when the feelings just fade as in i can't even understand what happened... it just did, i just shut like hell... didn't respond to her... nothing was heard from me.


My face was so distorted, I was too impatient waiting for the lady in charge to entertain us... i wanted to scream at her but it would be so so inappropriate, i don't want to labelled with such mis demeanor. I was so anxious that time, I just can't help it, i was firing in rage of what was happening. When I looked at the back to find something to cool me down, someone just called my name. oH! shoot! I saw Kym beamed a smile, waved at me and said hi. I was in total tick-tack in my mind. I just smiled back, i think but i just don't know how'd i looked like to her. She was with a group and by her acts eyes went rolling to me. Now that pissed me off in addition... hell yah! in the middle of a disaster, i was just so not myself.

I was thinking to make bawi that night but never saw her again. It was that disastrous moment that i saw her and not a trace of her anymore, I lost her in the crowd. I just texted her to apologize for whatever but she never replied.

"Nice to see you *small letter u with two dots above* sorry ha *small letter u with two dots above* nakakairita kc ung nagdidistribute nung food *small letter u with two dots above* *small letter u with two dots above* *small letter u with two dots above* " " *smile emoticon* "